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I am happy right now my life is going well and for once i am not nervous or expecting danger YAY

I have so much to do in the next few months, moving house is a big one and finding new job back in IT is another.

I love writing here and i far too often forget what its like to get my thoughts down.

I am reading a lot again as i have a lot of time on the bus to and from work from Em's house which henceforth shall be known as Home2

There are many nice places ot live in sandiacre and i am excited about moving.

i find i am sad about the end of Nightmare i have so many good nights there and will miss it , and i will miss it being there .........

I will miss knowing there is a place i can go and be greeted warmly by people i have shared many experiances with, i will hold in my heart for a very long time the memories of the great nights i have had there.

I find i am sad about some things and very happy about others right now which is a comfortable place for me oddly enough

Right now i feel settled and at some kind of peace with myself and my past and my future...its all very pleasent and wonderful

So kind reader i hope you are well and i hope the next stage in my life will be as intersting as the last

*peace*

Well yesterday i took woodlandfae to the wonderful fun land of Nightmare, many old freinds were there, including but not imited to Targ, Spooks , Mr Fox , Shana and a host of delightful people.

I have a wonderful time and i think the TinyWonderfulLady did also , now i plan a few more short outings next weekend i would love to take her to the new modern art gallery and lunch.

there were a few issues but on the whole i think it went very well indeed and it was most lovely to vatch up with people.

I simply love spending time with Em she makes me smile all the time, she is so wonderful and delightful and brave and simply amazing to me and for me.

I thank (insert which ever deity you beleive in here) fior her being in my life agian

*happy bounce*

*peace*

Right i have been wondering what to do with this journal recently as it has been pretty dull of late and i was looking for something new

And i have found something ........

At the start of next year i will be posting at least one picture per day for the entire year!!!!

This is a great idea i nicked from a freind on twitter by the name of Syn

I am really excited about this and i am greatly looking forward to finding a picture that represents each day YAY

I hope you are all well and happy and i am sorry i have not been posting much of late , life kinda got the better of me and i have been stupidly busy ansd tired.

*peace*

Just showing my bro Austin what this LJ thing is all about

I spent thursday in the fantastic company of woodlandfae and the fantastic mr Tux and much chatting and fun ensued.

Friday was spent on a mission to get these 




And they are sound AWESOME and fit wonderfully and are now my main headphones for daily use, On friday we caught up with an old friend called Ryan and much catching up happened, the rest of my time has been spent with the wonderful lady.

Today i have spent the entire day installing Kamic Koala on my new hard drive and switching out the old hard drive and then re installing all the applications , which was made mcuh eaier by the most excellent Aptoncd which meant i could create a cd with all the porgrams i sue on and import them straight into my new operations system YAY

And the my only tasks then was to write over the new folder with mine from previous drive and BANG all my settings are returned.

I have done this using windows and it took far longer and was much more annoying, while i dont think porting hard drives and OS's will ever be great fun it was the easiest this time ever.

So now i am using my Scorpio drive with 160gb with EXT 4 and grub 2 YAYS and a 40 sec bootup time OH YEAH

And the most wonderful woodlandfae Has been taking much care of me feeding me and and looking after me in many ways i feel most blessed ot have her in my life once agian, not many poeple get a second chance with each other.

I am very pleased with how well both woodlandfae and Mr Tux get on its so good to see two people who are so very dear to me get on so well

 Today is the first day of a new month, at work this means all of our stats get reset, now if i am really ready to go back into IT i should be able to nail all the stats i have control over.

So this month starting today I AM GOING TO SHOW THE JUST HOW GOOD I CAN BE

I am not the same good time party boy any more and i am much more clear headed than i have been for a long time.

It is also time to cut down on the coffee as everything else i have managed to either quit or pretty much

I feel much more in control these days

And soon it will be time to move house so getting work and my finances sorted is something i have to do if i want to get the kind of house/flat i want.

BUT right now its time for breakfast and a shower



 

Right i sorted out the ASSHATS that call themselves Rossendales, i contact the council and as is my lawfukl right asked them to take back the debt and accept an instalment plan

Thanks to everyone who posted on the last post you advice was most helpful *hugs*

The people i spoke to were very nice and asked that i send them my income and outgoings which i have dutifully done i now await there more reasonable response, they have agreed to put the annoying asshats on hold until such time as i can come to an arrangement with them YAY

Then myself and the ever amazing and always beautifulwoodlandfae went out on a DATE , we went to derby and to Nando's and costa and then a short walk/wheel it was most fun and happy making !

I am pretty tired now but very very happy

I beleived i passed to wheelchair negotiation test W00T and my finances are looking a little happier

I feel most blessed and happy right now and life is good now time for a quiet night in watching films and huggling LOTS

Well that was pretty annoying?

I just rang Rossendales and attempted to make them an offer on a debt of around £1000 , they refused any kind of instalment plan POINT BLANK and said they needed the full amount??

My first question is HOW?

My second question is since i have made a reasonable offer of anything up to £50 which i can back up with a income and outgoings plan what can they now do?

this is insane ?

I am settled but busy right now, i am trying to live in two places which is fun and confusing and he next free day i get at my home i am doing a super manic throw away nonsense on the front room.

I cant wait to move closer the TinyWonderfulLady but that will happen around February

I have to get my head down and continue re ordering my journal into some kind of book based form as i really want to make that happen

Life is good i feel immensly stable and settled right now, i am not seeking release or escape at all i am simply being happy

I think i am in the right place to put the last 9 years in some kind of order and i am in the right place to be with someone infact i feel i am in the right place

This is my favortie time of year i simply love it......

Yesterday i went went ofr a walk with the tinywonderfullady we saw squirrells and lots of lovly trees and leaves and all sorts of Autumn wonderful`ness

I love the feel of this time of year and this year it is more special than last year or the year beforre as i have a lady i love at my side and she also loves this time of year

I am not going to go on about how much i am in love withher as i am sure you already know from previous posts.

Work is ok it will never be great but with meditation and being in love means i can easily cope with it.

I am eating very healthily and sleeping better than ever and waking up is always a wonderful surpising thing when i relaise it wasnt a dream and see her face smiling next to me.

The world seems to be a happier , nicer place right now

I am spending a lot fo next week at home in an attempt to start the throwing away of the STUFF which is by far the biggest step in the lead up to the moving itself sometime early next year.

Life is good fair reader and i am happy and for once i am not beating myself up about it or worrying about when it may go wrong.  For once i am simply enjoying my good fortune and happiness

I am not drinking at all right now and my only other vices right now are good food, love and coffee i am feeling very healthy indeed

I hope you are all enjoying this most special time of year as much as i

*peace*

So i apeared to have been living at the Tinywonderfulladies house for most of the past seven days which is odd?

And VERY GREAT we are so wonderfully natural with each other and both kinda nervous *giggles*

Tomorrow night i am going to be at home for a couple of days so i can catch up with mail and housework and stuffs

I am happy and confused and today I COOKED and it was most yum

This morning i got coffee , kisses and croisants in bed i felt like a very lucky little me indeed

I can not begin to tell you all how great she is for me and to me

I plan to be at Nightmare next weekend which i am most looking forward to

I dont have a lot more to tell you all as i have been hiding at this place rather than my own so i have not seen many people or done very much

I am planning a holiday with ...and Mr Tux on a canal boat !!

My life is calmer and happier right now

*hugs*

I was chatting to ever lovley and always wonderful eglantinedreams earlier today and she paid the most wonderful and amazing compliment , it made me so happy and feel so blesed by my simply awesome and wonderful freinds

*makes mental note to arrange a visit **

Overall right now my life is made win and i am very happy in all sorts of ways, i am very content little me right now

I totally have no free time but i have always liked things being hectic and i feel more at peace when i am busy.

I am in that happy place where all is well and even the crap things like work dont seem to affect me

I need to meditate more and i need ot go to the gym more btu other than that all is well

*peace*

I have been spending a lot of time with a very special perosn and not much time at home of late, this has meant lots of traveling and lots of fun.

I have taken a massive step for mer and entered into 3 payment arrangements for the rest of my debt meaning i shold be debt freee by the end of the year and broke till then.

I am planning a holdiday to Brittany with a 2 freinds soemtime around spring next year YAY

And i have to say i have the best freinds in the universe everyone is being so lovely of late

My life is hectic and strange right now but very very fun.

I am still pretty dam tired but i am adjusting nicely to the new extended me awake hours and all the traveling and now i just see the bus journeys as a wonderful chance to read and listen to music

My life is great right now i need to find more time to go to the gym but that is all i am annoyed with myself about and to be fair with my schedule its hardly surpising something had to go.

I can not begin to tell you how fab everything is for me right now ITS JUST ACE

Work is still kinda dull but i dont mind at all

I still refuse to tie down what is happeing with any label so right now we are freinds and that is great for me right now though we are spending a lot of time with each other and i am very happy about that.

We seem both equally confuised by it all but in a happy fun way *giggles*

Its all wonderful and rather spiffing

I am also very clean at the mo no naughty things and very little drink and mostly veggie food and that all GREAT

waking up next to someone is one of those feeligns for me that makes everything seem ok

Happy little me i hope you are well and enjoyking life also

Life is prety busy and frankly ACE right now, i am stunningly tired and happy all at the same time

One day i will tell you the reason for my happines but for the time being i dont really have a clear picture of what is happening so i defer to a later time. It is good though i choose not to label it and restrict the wonderous possibilties.

All i an say now is that i have renewed a freindship with a very special person , and when i think about that person i smile.

I am happy and life is good, i missed Adams leaving do partly down to feeling very run down and just overly tired.

I really do wish him well in his future he has been a close freind who i have shared many good times with and i will alays treasure those memories

I am spending increasing amounts of my time traveling between two houses which is odd and wonderful and has given me a lot of time to read,think and smile.

I am feeling very postive about life and very tired all at the same time it is wonderfully odd.

Sometime you decide to send a mesage or a text or make a call and wonderful unexpected amazing things happen, life is very odd and amazing.

Sometimes we dont see the amazing chances and possibilties open to us and at those times we are less than we could be BUT they are always there waiting to surprise us and bring a smile to our faces.

Recently i relaised i had made a mistake long ago and i hope i am making up for it, to be given that chaace is amazing

I am sorry this may not have made much sense i promise one day it will

*peace*

Many years ago about 11 to be exact in Nottingham a night was started by some friends and i was at the first one and i shall be at the last one in a couple of months.

That night changed many things way beyond what anyone of us thought would happen, it helped merge different music styles, its effected the look of the time around it, it gave people like me who had goth/rock roots but loved dance music a place to go IN EFFECT IT WAS AMAZING

I went there last night and while it is less than it was its still GREAT

Many of my best memories have been at that night and some of my worst but i will always be grateful that i was in some way a part of it for a while

The night is Nightmare and it has been great all the parties all the people it was simply amazing

I cant begin to tell you all the things i have experienced since that night started but i was pretty much there at everyone one i could be until 2 years ago when i moved on.

I for whatever reason lost my ease in social situations and i stopped enjoying being in clubs.

I will never really know why that happened perhaps its growing up perhaps .......

Now my life is very different from when it started, back then i was married i owned a house, i had three cats , i was running my own IT business

Now in many ways i am enjoying my life more than i was and in some i am not, i am older and maybe wiser.

I have lost my need for the outside verification and lost my need to be that person.

But from time to time i do still enjoy a good night out and thats what last night was

I know i will miss Nightmare , i will miss knowing that its there no matter what is going on in my life.

SO this is a thank you to Gadge, Chris, Mat, Em, Leigh, Sarah, Charlie, Dylon, Adam, Mr Fox, Liv, Michael, Claire, Targ, Scarlett, Sprocket, Barry, Richard, Rako, Spoox, Carrie, Glyn another Mat and the many others that were there at those nights and parties.

It was one of those odd things that changes so many things for so many people.

So this is good bye i will be at the last one but i wanted to get this down while i was thinking about it and was feeling the correct way

So if your young and thinking you cant change anything DONT, sometimes for some reason you are a part of something that just bigger than anything else you have done and sometimes if you are very lucky you figure that out while its still happening.

We can all change things and we can all make our mark on the world

And even if we only make one person happy we have done something great, Nightmare made many people happy and gave a group of people a night to call there own, itwill always have a very special place in my heart