I now have to think about myself, and i am not happy, in fact i sad all the time. Doing anything is hard all the time
So i plan for a future without her and hope for a different one with her
I want to travel...need to
I am planning for that i need to see things and i need to experience.
Its only just beginning but i can move forward and save and plan and it will be great, there will always be a hole in my life without her love and that life we planned.
I have to move forward i cant stand still i stagnate i .......stop working as well.
I cant be like that so i wont, The mac G4 is leaving the house this week and over the next few weeks i will throw/give/freecycle other things away
And free myself a little more and then see what happens