February 11th, 2010

YAY a present for Darwin!!!!

Busy crazy, emotional few weeks

On monday woodlandfae went in for her operation it went very well , but due to her allergies her pain relief post op has not been great.

Seeing her in pain and screaming are memories which may haunt me for the rest of my life BUT they also have made me aware of just how strong and amazing she is.

Myself and the most fabulous and all round amazing Mr Tuxman have cleaned her house and washed all of her clothes and hoovered and scrubbed like loons

I am shattered on both a physical and  emotional level, i have cried a bit in the last few days and felt powerless more often than i would like but all this is normal?

Soon the tinywonderfullady will be home with me looking after her and i am most pleased she will come back to a wonderfully clean and tidy home.

I have also arranged a fresh organic veg box to be delivered here every 2 week so there will be really real food to help her recover and i have many soup and hot pot style recipes at the ready please send more should you know of any great vegi ones PLEASE

I love her more than i am able to  say in this simplistic text format she has become so very very dear to me.

I have to thank mr Tux for the support , lifts, cleaning and all round ACENESS i dont know how well i would have coped with out him

I have pleasantly surprised myself at how well i have assumed this new role and am pleased that at this point in my life i am a little more responsible and able to be the person that is needed.

I want to hold her in my arms and never let her go again

Maybe i am maturing a little?

This is a new stage in my life and a much less selfish one i am happy to take this step into a more grown up and committed relationship.

I had a dream last night that i had cheated and i was appalled with myself and so happy when i woke up and realised it was a dream.

So onward and upward

*EDIT* The tinywonderfullady is back home and looking much better YAY i am leaving her to go to sleep