March 8th, 2010

YAY a present for Darwin!!!!

on the bus

On my way to work today i was reflectingon the always changing nature of my thoughts and how that is relected in my lifestyle.

I came to the conclusion i am pleased that i am in a constant state of change and that while some things stay the same for long periods many of my inner thoughts and ways of loking at the world are in contant flux.

I know to some poeple this makes me seem erratic and sometimes not involved in certain things but in many ways the oposite is true i think very deeply about all things but due to the a speed of my thoughts and my somewhat strange of odd thought patterns it just seems that way.

And this is the force that drives me to alter myself and the way i approach the world i am contatntly finding new ways of looking at things and new ways of understanding things.

I apologise to my freinds who dont get this about me its not that i am not intrested or not involved or commited to the situation its just that maybe i see it differently to you.

I love all my my freinds deeply and you all mean the world to me and i know i can seem oddly distant and sometimes i disapear and its not that i dont want to call or see you its just i get distracted and forget sometimes.