April 6th, 2012

YAY a present for Darwin!!!!

Thoughts about fatherhood

Firstly i would like to say a massive thank you to Jacey the amazing and frankly tireless work that you do looking after our baby girl i have no words for, she is amazing because of you, secondly thank you for letting me be a part of her life the happiness and joy i get and i see on her face every time i appear is amazing...it literally makes my life worth it.

Now the thing i can not understand is why a father would abandon there child?? THEY ARE THE MOST IMPORTANT AND THE GREATEST ACHIEVEMENT OF YOU LIFE YOU MORONS.

Yes i know its stressful and exhausting balancing work, your own house, friends etc but seeing my daughters smile and hearing that special noise she saves just for when she is with me IS AWESOME and makes everything in my life pale by comparison.

I wont lie and say i am not pretty much tired all the time living in two different houses, working long hours to pay for my life and help out with Squidge when and where i can BUT i have been this tired for far far far less.

And the the other thing i can not imagine is being denied access.......it would destroy me, a child needs both parents around as much as possible , i can not understand it simply as that , yeah some dads are ...less than perfect (holds hands up)  but there child can change them i know mine has for me.

I love my daughter she ....has changed so much about my life and will continue to surprise and amaze me and i suspect encourage me to change me to be a better person.

Thank you Jacey this is not a path i would have gone down with anyone else and i and Squidge are blessed and lucky to have you as her mum