Well it seems woodlandfae and myself are not together right now , and maybe no together at all.
I love her ...and i dont know ?
I miss her every minute i am not with her .........................
BUT i am not going to force this and i am going give her the time that she need and address any issues, perhaps we can make this work , perhaps not i simply dont know
I am also not going to turn to the clubs and parties and the drink and stuffs
Instead i am going to tidy my house get ready for a new stage in my life whatever that may be i hope it is with her .....but i accept if its not.
Losing myself wont help me find her again....so i can count myself lucky i have learnt and matured perhaps a little.
small steps and honesty and geniune love this is my plan