Alan Clarke (technomouse) wrote,
Alan Clarke

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OK so its time to make chnages BIG changes.

Over the next week when i have fre time i am thorwing away lots of "stuff" i am bored of this now

Then the kitchen

And then starting to look for a new job

And then.....a new house

I refuse to let myself get sad and depresed this time i am not going to turn to drinking and drugs and end up back where i was

woodlandfae Helped me understand a lot about myself

And dam it i want a nice house and to not be in debt and all that stuff

I maybe cant have her again and thats something i will cry about and am doing BUT i can have those things and i can have a happy life eventually

So work more hours, more overtime, more sales and more bonuses yes its a crap job but its a crap job i am going to be great at.

and home....tidy , emptier and CLEAN

Yes its not a great house but its can easily be a very nice one

So me ...well i will be fine one day soon i will wake up and not reach for her, and one day i will be ok, i hope this isnt the end for me and her but if it is then we part freinds and thats great
Tags: depressed, determined, melocholy, sad
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