but this time i tried i did way more this time and thought about my actions and words far more and really tried.
Love isnt enough
I think i am going to be sad about this one for awhile both at my own shortcomings and my inabilty to grasp the emotional aspect of a relationship and ........................
i dont think i want to try with anyone again for a while i am not sure i deserve anyone
I opened myself up far more emotionally and to be honest it hurts to much.
I am trying not to be angry and trying not to blame the other party and i sure this is mostly my fault
But at the same time i would have liked more of a chance
i did a lot this time and maybe not everything i could but i had work to get to and increased traveling time meant i was out of the house for 9 ish hours most days and was still held to a very high standard that i am not entirly sure was fair
But at the same time i was unable to give or do that much so i failed
I will cry for a while and be sad for a long while and stuff.....
this is all for now good night