This makes so much sense that i am disappointed with myself for not noticing it previously
This means I now need to take steps to sort this out.
I have always had a self dislike which i have never seen as a problem until now.
I think for me for the time being ..Buddhism and staying single are a way forward and at the same time creating better conditions and opportunities for myself.
So new house maybe in Nottingham maybe not
A fresh start maybe a way forward while i sort my head out.
I am reducing the amount of negative in my life by being more mindful of my reactions to situations and poeple.
And this is helping.
So i have a flaw and plan YAY