Well sign on, sort out housing benefit and start looking for a new job i suppose.
I have been continuing the throwing away/giving away of my stuff.
It time to get rid of my attachments......i am left wondering where i go from here, no job, no partner, no.......
I thought i had all this shit figured out at the start of this year a baby planned, a job and the most amazing lady in the world.
Now i have none of that.....
I left feel cold, detached, sad and confused
I need to take some kind of action but i have little or no motivation to do so
So instead i am sitting around the house finding it hard to write and mostly watching TV shows and playing computer games.
I am not happy......i can remember happy but i am no longer there
I feel lost again...a feeling i have become kind of used to.....it starting to seem like its where i should be, i always seem to end up here.
Im tired ALL the time, i seem to have no energy or desire anymore.
Nothing really holds much interest for me and nothing seems to matter,
I did even feel anything when they let me go on monday i still dont really care.
I need to find that something in me that i used to have, i can still fake every so often but its not really there...just a shadow
Perhaps i should just stop fucking typing all this introspective, nonsense