Alan Clarke (technomouse) wrote,
Alan Clarke

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this may sound odd

At night when i on my own i found myself often chatting out loud to a friend who died recently.

and recently chatting to her has given me perspective.

All those crazy wonderful , mad nights were AMAZING and i will never regret them, At the same time i know now i was so afriad of myself of my emotions.

I always thought THIS life , having a baby and not drinking or whatever would be so dull, when in fact ITS MORE ALIVE, and better and like i am doing something important and i was so wrong for so many of those years.

I am glad i did it .....i learnt so much and saw so many things that i bring a lot of life experiance with me and that will help Mia so much i hope.


This is better ....its fuller and more wonderfully confusing...feeling all of this is AMAZING

And i have to thank JC for showing me there was more......and i am so happy that i am going to be a father and i will do my best to be a GREAT dad.

I was wrong for a lot of years and ....its ok because i was young and i learnt so so so much 

And now with all that life experiance i am ready for this and its not dull ITS MORE and better and so amazing that i am happier than i have ever been and life is good
Tags: jc, kwauwau
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