Alan Clarke (technomouse) wrote,
Alan Clarke

I So nearly 40 and a lot of questions

So recently for rthe past few months I have been kinda stuck between the person i was ( Carter ) and the person i am yet to become.

I am stuck because I don't know who he is yet, there are a lot of choices and a lot of questions that goes along with them.

Do i settle for the job and the life that goes along with it? And if yes to that what about all the changes and causes i want to become more involved with my daughter deserves a better world then this, but do I just let all that go?

And if the answer is no then how do I become more involved with all of that without stepping away from that working man?

Amnesty and charity work and all those things that if anything matter more now i am a dad how can I walk away from those causes?

I need to be the best father I can be but I am not sure which me if any of these is the best one for that role.

I do know however that Carter needs to be put n the box sure i will take what I need and those lessons from that life but that life is gone no point looking back.

A freind warned me a long time ago that having a baby was not for people like us , i get it now i cant be that person i need to be a better one.

So month off work coming soon and time to answer these questions
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